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Hope this year has been amazing so far for you all!
For me, it has been challenging to be honest.. but God knows best.
I’m learning being a christian is easy but at the same time… the flesh makes it harder than it ought to be. But, I find solace in knowing I have a father that has my best at heart.
When it comes to having faith.. I always wonder sometimes why after praying for healing or health, we do not get healed or we do not receive what we prayed for. But then, my pastor said something one Sunday… he said (I am paraphrasing here):
if you are asking somebody (yourself) whether to pray for God’s healing or to go to the hospital, then you are better off going to the hospital.
It took me a while to understand what he meant, but then it clicked. What he is saying is, for you ask that question in the first place, you do not have faith!
So, despite hearing this, I still struggled! I contemplated loads whether to share this or not.. but hey.. I will and if i feel like I shouldn’t have, I can always make this post private afterwards.
About 5 years ago, I had surgery to remove a lump in my body. Thankfully, it was not cancerous and apparently, no one knows what causes. They gave me the option not to take it out because it wouldn’t harm me and the size wasn’t too worrying.. but who wants a lump in their body? Anyway, so that was that. A few months ago… it came back again! This really annoyed me because I really did not want to go under the knife again, in exactly the same spot. So I prayed… but as I was praying, I couldn’t decide whether to pray for the lump to go away or to pray for the surgery to go well! I mean, if I had enough faith, I should have prayed for the lump to go away right?
In fact, a few weeks before my surgery, this lady in my church gave a testimony. She found a lump in her breast, and even before the biopsy, she kept praying about it because she didn’t want a biopsy and by the time the biopsy appointment arrived, the lump had gone! I on the other hand, I had done biopsy and was counting down to surgery and confused on what to pray for *sigh*
Anyway… surgery day arrived, took the lump out. Thank God, it was the same thing and not cancerous.. but this time, I know what I will be praying for! For the lump never to return and I am working on my faith!
That’s enough doom for one post… unfortunately… I might be blogging about another… maybe one day. I’ll see how I feel. I am hoping to post about it as a testimony… so might take some time.
On a brighter note…….
I am finally going on a proper holiday within Europe! I have always wanted to do this, but was too broke as a student and always had exams in Edinburgh. I’ve been to Paris a couple of times, once on a school trip and another as a day trip with friends. Also been to Malta with church…
This time, myself and my darling boo are going to Germany for a Wedding, then Italy for a week in Summer! Really excited. Two countries I have never been to before. Hoping to squeeze Spain in as well before the end of the year…. that would be lovely *daydreams*
So that’s me… a bit of sweet and sour!
Wishing you an amazing rest of the week!